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I am a Life & Clutter Coach and IST Practitioner. I LOVE helping writers, creatives and entrepreneurs just like YOU, make their homes and lives into supportive containers for their creative AND personal lives.  

Cecilia's sharp, crystalline insight has kept me on track in my creative life, my business life, and my emotional life for the past six years: she's a triple threat!

 - Sarah Selecky, author of Giller Prize nominated This Cake is for the Party

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Do you feel... Weird?

A few weeks ago I was hanging out with my sweetie in the kitchen and said

"I feel..."

and he said

"Let me guess? ...You feel... Weird?".

First came uproarious laughter, then a pause. 

Hmm...  Is it possible that I feel weird a lot? 

It's true.  I'm often saying "I feel weird" or "I feel funny", so it's not surprising that he could finish my sentence but what does it mean?

When I looked at it more closely I realized that I feel weird when I don't feel 100% like myself.  Not like Cecilia Moorcroft, but that feeling in my heart and being that feels like ME, the real me, the bigger me, the me that doesn't feel... weird.

Thus began the hunt for more ME in my life.  When did I feel weird?  When did I feel not weird?  When did I feel AMAZING?

I call it the Weird Barometer, Weirdometer (? Thanks Gaby!), and is it ever helpful.

If I feel weird, then it means that something is off and most likely what's off is that I'm not in alignment with what's true for me. 

I told you a couple of weeks ago, that what's true for me is this feeling in my heart, the heart wings feeling. 

The fact is, not everything I do makes me feel that way. 

I recently said yes to something that I probably should have said no to and boy did my heart wings kick up a fuss.  They got all ruffled and went straight to sulking, wings crossed in a huff. 

Yuck, that didn't feel good. So, I went back and said that I had changed my mind.  I said no. 

It was hard.  It was uncomfortable, but as soon as I did my heart wings sighed in relief and went to work grooming themselves so they could stretch out again. 

Since the "I feel...let me guess?...you feel weird" day I actually feel weird a lot less, in fact more often than not I have the heart with wings feeling and I have to say, it's a much sweeter place to live. 

It's easier to say no to things that I have a feeling will bring on the weird and yes to the things that will make my heart wings hula hoop to Dance Mix '92.  

Thank goodness for the people who know me best, thank goodness for my sweetie. 

The fact is I was saying "I feel weird" so much that it felt normal to say it and more importantly it felt normal to feel it.  I don't want it to be normal that I feel weird, I want it to be normal to feel like ME!

Am I the only one?

Do you ever feel weird, off or funny?

What does it feel like, when you feel like YOU?

What helps you to feel less weird and more like yourself?

I'd love to hear about it in the comments below and you know what?  It would definitely make me feel more like ME if you did.  Not that you should do it for me, you should do it for you and then send it to your friend who is always complaining that she feels... weird.




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Reader Comments (4)

Oooh I know what you mean! I'm quite new at learning to distinguish the difference between feeling weird and being afraid of something; not always easy to tell. Like this women's group I was invited to; I wanted to... but I felt weird about it. And knowing I have historically not been a fan of groups of women, I got tangled up in wondering if I was just being afraid and basing my fear on the past {which didn't have to have anything to do with the future}. But after talking it over with a friend, she just said, I don't think you're ready yet, and I was SO relieved! Like I had to get permission to not do it. And I realised I didn't want to, so I'm not. At least not for now.

I'm coming to believe that if anything doesn't feel quite 'right', whether it's to do with fear or discomfort or just something unnameable, then by virtue of not feeling the 'heart wings' feeling {love that!}, it just isn't for you, or isn't for you in the format that you're looking at it. Sometimes just asking for clarity and waiting to see what comes up is enough to see it differently and choose the heart wings option when it arises.

Sorry that was a bit of an essay!

March 4, 2013 | Unregistered CommenterTara

I feel weird a lot. Thank you for writing/reminding me to check in with that feeling. I'm about to change a "yes" into a "no" right now, as a result of this post. I'm nervous about going back on my previous commitment (I hate not doing what I say I'm going to do) but I know I have to honour my intuition in this case. Thanks Cecilia. xo Sarah

March 4, 2013 | Unregistered CommenterSarah

I wrote to you about my dream coming true of buying a cafe...since then it has been a bit hard and seems like it won't come through...I have broken out in eczema, an old sing that something is off....maybe it is my heart wings rearing up in protection...I am going to sit quietly with this and see what the old heart wings have to say...well I think I know I shouldn't actually do it...ugh ;)
Thanks for this post and all of your lovely honest writing!

March 5, 2013 | Unregistered Commenteralex

I'm glad to hear that I'm not alone in the "feeling weird" category Tara, Sarah and Alex.

I think it is important to distinguish between the weird that is off and the weird that is afraid, because sometimes the only thing that will take the weird feeling away is to do the thing that scares you.

I'm wondering if one way to work with this is to "try on" the end result to see how it feels when you get there. Or maybe it's like Tara is saying, that something needs to be tweaked until it fulfills the heart wings.

I know for me I can be doing the exact same "task" but depending on how I approach it, it makes all the difference to whether I feel wonderful or weird.


p.s. I might have to go ahead and write another blog post about this. :)

March 8, 2013 | Registered CommenterCecilia Moorcroft

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